Crimes Inadvertent

I feel that a crime must involve intent or negligence.

Some acts that are regarded as crimes are crimes because society looks down upon the act.

The blurring of social taboo, mistakes, ethical violation and crime, I feel is a problem because it removes the opportunity to learn from a mistake.

The idea of moving from home is appealing because you are freed from the shame and mistakes of your past.

Sometimes the people who commit the fewest negative acts are held to the harshest standards because they are willing to own up to their mistakes and not obscure them in deception and lies.

The Future

Challenges will present and I will overcome them.
The future will come and I will face it.
Tragedies will occur and I will recover from them.
Doubt will emerge and I will choose faith.
Time will end and life will continue.

Crazy, crazy, crazy perfectionism

I hate not being able to fix things immediately. It's not normal. It's stupid, stupid anxiety. It's helpful because this gets me to fix things immediately when I find that there's a problem and a solution (no put it off to tomorrow for me). Only the consequence is that I get stuck in these obsessive modes where I can't stand inactivity.

Parents, parties and hot dishes

I learned my lesson a while ago. Family parties are about as much fun as rubbing alcohol and broken glass with a strychnine chaser. I don't want to go to a party sweating buckets while all the people who I don't like anyway look down on the black sheep. NOT FUN and not happening.

Yay...i think

I drove. Not far. But I did it. That counts. I count it anyway.

I wasn't scared. Nervous...not scared. No hand shaking, heart pounding, confidence draining fear.

Sure, there are problems in my life. I haven't gotten my life together yet. But there is discernible progress. Progress...what a beautiful word.

Everyone Makes Mistakes

I hate making mistakes but that's only because everyone makes me feel so lousy about honest mistakes without malice or ill-intent.

I believe in seeking improvement. There is always room for improvement. There are books to read, movies to watch, new experiences to try, and ways to change.

I am changing. At least, I'm trying to. The point of the intent behind my mission for change is self actualization.

Going for the gold ring. The trifecta of achievement. Success at work, happiness with life, and satisfaction with self.

More "I" Statements

I have low self esteem.
I don't think more people like me.
I get paid shit.
I want to be happy.
I don't know how to be happy.
I get depressed regularly.
I wish that there was one person that really for who I am and not for who I appear to be or who I could.
I wish that I didn't feel crying half the time and screaming the other half.
I wish I was really happy.
I'm just not.